janiyah sierra blair

my mommy

No Longer Can I

No Longer Can I...

No longer can I be who you think I am. No longer can I stand still in this torture. No longer can I remain unhappy because of you. No longer can I be who you think I am. No longer can I let you use me like a toy. No longer can I bleed from the pain you inflict. No longer can I hold my breath inside of this fear. No longer can I let you use me like a toy. No longer can I hide my willingness to survive. No longer can I pretend that I have let you win. No longer can I be of false hope to the others. No longer can I hide my willingness to survive. No longer can I be broken pieces of sunshine. No longer can I continue being pushed from my destiny. No longer can I accept your evil misguided exhortations. No longer can I be broken pieces of sunshine. No longer can I...

Written by Mz. Nisha Babee

The First Time I Fell In Love

I was 16 years old. I was sitting in my English class. I was goofing around with my bestie and making fun of our idiot table partners. It was hilariously funny making explicit remarks about them. We all were having a good time not doing our classwork. Ha ha. Then it happened. He walked into our classroom exuding plenty of swag! So much that I completely stopped laughing and stared at him. Soaking in all the finess and handsome qualities he had to offer. Then I did it. My heart began to have premature ventricular contractions as I started to fall hard and deep, so deep into love with a perfect stranger! My god! After I started to wind down from the euphoric state his presence put me in, I noticed he was looking at me too. He had the most beautiful clearest brown eyes I'd ever seen. He licked his lips and dazzled me with a smile that melted me to my seat. In my mind I was thinking, none too innocently, of the things I'd do to him that would make a prostitute blush. Ha! The rest of that day I was in a trance. I was stupid drunk on the wonderful feeling of being in love for the first time!

 

Love?
I have you deep in the heart of me,
So deep inside my heart,
That you truly are a part of me.
Can you love me like a book of poetry?
Read me over and over again
And uncover the magic between my lines?
Can you love me with your mind?
Can you speak to me with your mouth closed shut?
Can you study my heart and learn to love me with your mind?
Can you kiss me 100 times with your eyes open?


Can I be your heart?
Beating, pumping, and loving.
Imagine me inside your chest.
Love? Can you and I be the definition?

Brian Mcknight Jr. Sexc. Soulful Singer.

Jamarii Johnathan Blair
March 3, 2009 1:41am

My Favorite Poem

Annabel Lee

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

Edgar Allan Poe

I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul.
I gave you every emotion I can’t control...
But what’s inside me, i can’t ignore.
I’m out here searching, searching for much more...
I never ever imagined to fall into this trap,
Feeling so useless and dumb sitting in this gap...
Why can’t you just acknowledge & feel my pain,
teardrops stains my shirt and hurt creeps into my veins....
The damage you caused me, I hope you had your fucking fun.
The hurt that you caused me, resulted in so much misery...
That’s what you wanted though wasn’t it ?
To see me hurt and leave these scars on my heart ?
I never thought I could feel like this,
No more sweet happiness & no more wonderful bliss.
How long will it take for you to see?
That you and me we were meant to be....